Wednesday, July 9, 2008

It's Time

It's time to pick myself up and get on with things.

I wish I could say that it was going to be easy. I can't seem to get anything done if Jerrod is at home.All I want to do is listen and watch him. Jer is having the same problem. I am so thankful that he has a job that allows him to work from home. He does a lot of that and also is able to take Jerrod with him.I still cant seem to leave the house, so I am glad that Jerrod is not house bound with me.

He is also going to be a lot of work.I love my husband so much for many reasons but one of the main ones is that he always has been so involved and hands on.We got a little sidetracked here but he is right by my side to help get us back on track.

I hate either one of them being gone but I have come to realize things have to get done. I cleaned house today. I tried yesterday but it just didnt happen. I tried to go out to Gracie house and work also but that didnt happen either.Tomorrow I will try again.My oldest finally went back to work.What a great kid she is. I cry she hugs. I get mad she says something funny.Anything I need she is there. Wow we did good with that one. The youngest she is my helper too.We try and keep her away from most of it but explain what she does hear. Hopefully this kid will learn from the mistakes she is seeing and never go down that road.

Its amazing that one action can completly change everything. I cant say thank you enough to all that helped us look and to the ones that brought him home. The warm thoughts and prayers.The community around us that distributed flyers and even paid for flyers we had ordered. If anyone ever comes to Kenai and you see a coffee shop by the name of Funky Monkey, you have to go there. I will give them all my business and wish I could do more.Those people are incredible. But they were only a part of the wonderful people who helped.

Even my cyber friends who have never even met me.Wow. You ALL are amazing and I drew from your warm wishes. THANK YOU.

So now I am going to pick myself up. I made a hair appointment for Saturday so I know I HAVE to leave the house.No more panic attacks.Now I am going to get off of here and pick up some fabric. I may not do anything with it but I need to pick it up and hold it. Maybe I can even finish something, maybe.

5 comments:

Vicki W said...

I'm so glad he is home. It will take a while to sort things out. Take it one day at a time and don't forget to take care of yourself too.

Jan said...

You know.... time alone may be a really good gift to give yourself to sort through everything in your head and deal with it head on. One foot in front of the other. One breath at a time. That's all you have to do. One moment at a time.

Smiles! Becca said...

I will get here. I am determined.I have him back and I am not going to go downwithout the biggest fight of my life.Thank you Ladies for your encouragement.

Freda said...

Please take care of yourself Becca. It will take time to heal this between you but time will help it.

Smiles! Becca said...

Thank you Freda, I do actually see the light at the end of the tunnel. Its a long tunnel but he is worth it.