Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Saturday, April 26, 2008
It was a very stressful week to begin with though.Which is I guess why I didnt put my all into figuring out the whole computer save thing. Our foster daughter is now living in a group home. She made that choice and I think it is the best for her. Her child advocate has been so supportive to us, her social worker too.That helps as we feel that we somehow failed. We know in our brains that we didnt but the heart has a whole nother feeling about it. The child does need something more then we can give her right now. She is so mixed up an confused and being in this home I hope and pray will help her learn how to make better descisions.
Now we can focus on our 3 kiddos and help them to heal. There was a lot of damage done this last couple weeks and my kids need to get past that. I dont know if we will remain foster parents. We have quit once before.Its so hard to see these kids go the direction they go and not be able to stop them. I guess we will have to just wait and see. Its so hard to quit but yet its so hard not to.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
She has decided a few of our rules are not worth living here. These rules are not up for a compromise. We have compromised on so many things which has been difficult as we do have 3 other children.But on this we will not. I hate to see her leave I really do but I cant take this tension in the house too much longer.
When she asked us to come live with her we outlined what life would be like. We had to resign back up in the foster care system and go through all the crap the state asks.We told her we would only do it if she could live by our rules. I know she is only 16 and they have psychotic brains but it is still pretty dissapointing. Truthfully for the last month I have been feeling this come on. Breaking the small rules just to see what happens. Asking to spend the night at other people houses just about every night of the week. We have even been hearing things come back to us.
We arent even talking about psycho rules. I would doubt they differ really from just about every other family. Hubby says let her try it someplace else. But I am too attached. I dont want her to. I had hoped we could help her find a goal in life other then drinking or drugs. My kids are pretty sad too they cant understand why she is fighting us.But they are also tired of the tension.That makes me sad for them.
Ok I have written this out. Maybe the feeling better part is just delayed a little.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
I spent the morning picking out new curriculum for homeschool next year. I am exhausted but happy with my choices. Lets hope the kiddos will be happy with them too! We are going to try Oak Meadows for Astrid who will be in the third grade.Their philosophy really sounded good to me and the subjects look like they will be really interesting to her and fun for me to teach. Definitely more hands on.Jerrod is taking a bunch of different things but I am most excited about his math program.Its by teaching textbooks and has dvd lectures and problem solving for every lesson and problem in the book! YES!
I have to try this video upload.Jerrod has been working so hard on the piano and in videoing it so he can send it to his grandma.He still needs to work on a few notes and iron out some kinks in the video but its pretty good.Im really proud of him.He's played and taken lessons since he was 5.It seems we are past the difficult stage and too the point that the songs have begun to be fun to listen too. Lets hope Astrid doesnt take as long!
Monday, April 14, 2008
So off the frame into the house, rip it out, resew it, back to Gracie house, repin and start quilting again. In the midst of this there were about a dozen phone calls.ALL long distance with friends and family I wanted to give my attention to. So did NOT finish that quilt today.
I quit at 5 and came into the house.There was my butterfly quilt just waiting for something.So I worked a little more on that too. I am making progress although not ready to post another picture yet.Maybe tomorrow we will see.It is going to be a loooooong work in progress.
So now I need to eat and then onto binding a customer quilt.A king.I wont be finishing that today either.So no finishes but I did make progress. All in all I guess I cant complain.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
This guy is one in a million though.I cannot even list the number of things he has done for us.The time it would take to list them all would be days.I had actually been happy that I could make him these two gifts.A great way to say thank you for all he has done. So now I have to come up with something different.Maybe something I can do for him that he couldnt pin on me.I will have to give that one some thought.
Thinking about what he did for us though makes me think about what we do for others. I think about my husband on this also.He is one of my heros in this aspect. I cannot count how many times he has plowed for others late at night so they didnt know who did it, he drops off the first salmon of the year he catches to the senior housing for a dear friend, he has dropped groceries at front doors while struggling single mothers are at work, and paid utility bills for many without them knowing. I have tried for years to be like this. I am still trying. I get so wrapped up in the day to day that I neglect to look around me.
I can most definitely say we have been on the receiving end many many times. I know how good it feels and how thankful it makes me. I want others to feel that way too. So I am going to try even harder to think of others and to do nice things without a reason.
Monday, April 7, 2008
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Meet the cat who hates me. I really think she does.My husband who used to think I was imagining it has come around to my way of thinking. He still sides with the cat though because its his cat. She loves to knock on our window at night to come and sleep with him. That in itself is not bad except for she still isnt crazy I am there too. He can rub her fur the wrong way pull on an ear or even scratch her tummy, but if I dare to turn over (even in my sleep) I get bit!